HEY GUYS!!!!!!!!

OKAYYY LIKE OMG ITS BEEN AGES SINCE I BLOGGED!!!!! I M SORRYYY!!!!

yes yes well, exam finished, and i was all busy busy, till i forgot to blog

sort of didnt have the mood to blog, or the things that took place is just not something that i would want the whole world to know…

anyways, catch my pictures in facebook, need to contact me, well, you have my number, msn, and facebook address… just wanted to say that i will not be blogging here anymore… i have lost the interest to blog about outings or trips or random happenings in my life…

on that note, thank you for visiting!!

yoe

fOoD

i was studying in my room… then i suddenly felt the urge to eat something sweet, like cake…

so i went downstairs, took out all my baking stuff, *poof* 45 minutes and i had cake to eat ady… LOL… the wonders of baking =)  it made my day; on another note, OH MY GOD GOSH! (we do not say god’s name in vain) i have TWO more papers to go! 23rd June here i come! i need sleep =.=

yoe

i m walking away from the troubles in my life

i m walking away to find a better day

i m walking away from you

i dont want to say goodbye to you

love is one big illusion that i should try to forget

i m the one who is feeling lost right now

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

dont know which way to go

there aint so much to say now between us

there can be miracles

when you believe

though hope is frail

its hard to kill

in this time of fear

when prayer so often proves in vain

hope seems like the summer bird

too swiftly flown away

i was lost in a lonely place

could hardly even believe it

holding on to yesterdays

far, far too long

but i know its time

to walk away, away from you

yoe

Granted

i wanted to blog about something, but i think i have forgotened haha… well maybe cause its the whole thing being nostalgic bout highschool, and missing my highschool friends and all… highschool was so much fun, yes yes there was drama, a lot in fact haha, but well, that was one part of highschool that really really made it fun. i miss my classmates, i miss my friends… and with everyone creating albums in facebook bout our memories… just makes you go “awwww” hahaha…

yes we do keep in touch, yes we do talk, but it will never be the same right? pulling a friend into the stairway just to tell her something… someone you see everyday, you tell them so many things, and now they are miles and miles away… when all you want is just that time again, at the stairway, just to tell her how you feel…sighhh

i really should be studying… but well, i think i will create a highschool album as well >< to show my friends how much i miss them… haha

cherish your friends. dont take them for granted. its hard when you lose a friend. it is. sometimes those near you arent there anymore… those so close, just arent that close anymore. those who you always gave you sholder to cry on, is not there for you anymore… all you can do is hope. yes you might miss the person a lot, well looks like separation is what the destiny holds.

dont take anyone for granted.

yoe

AI craze

YES… it has been a total craze bout AI, which i just realized when a friend was asking me, “eh why the big deal? why is everyone listening to the songs and all? whats with the craze yoe?”  I answered, “cause it american idol la!!! hahaha… its the season XD” LOL

anyway!!! CONGRATS KRIS ALLEN!!! YOU ROCK!=)

i have been playing his songs again and again, his voice makes me metl!… haha not bored of it yet =D and totally loving Falling Slowly and Heartless do dld it people!but yes i will not disagree, that Adam Lambert is a fantastic vocalist, love his Tracks of My Tears… =)

yoe

Cravings

i really really really need to go out for some GOOD food!! ok its just i have not been to midvalley for the pass two weeks ady! so i m craving!! i think its the stress… yes yes its the stress

something cold, really sweet, with fruits, sooooo refreshing, judging from our weather nowadays, you really DO need a dessert you know! AHHH I WANT!!!

AND SUSHI!!! i have sushi like everyweek!! but i didnt have it for the pass two weeks! so i m craving!! i want to go to Zanmai… i tell you, i m so gonna get someone to teman me for makan one of these days >< (oh btw the sushi picture was taken at this small sushi place in Pantai…we go one day k? very nice, pretty affordable…oh and THAT was two people’s lunch =D)

any takers? come we go makan!!!

yoe

Scream!

oh gosh the exams are so stressful, and i m in such pressure! cause my papers are freaking hard to score… and yes theres like loads and piles of notes to read, latihan to complete, facts to memorize and calculations/formulas to master… ting ting ting! feels like super no life now lol!

so i do take my regular breaks, for a drink of starbucks, most of the time with Swee. well we watched Night at the Museum 2 yesterday, really random it was. haha. so i just finished one week of exam, now i have like a 1 week break, before i start again on June 1st untill June 23rd =.= oh we watched He’s NOT that into You before my exams started as well… ladidadadada!

i think i forgot how to blog… the method of blogging… O.O *gasp* it feels weird to blog after so long hahaha… i havent even been blog surfing… haha.. but i have been facebooking a lot la… the facebook quizzes are so addictive… cause bout 75% of them gives you the correct… haha so it makes it so enlightening and fun, that you keep on taking them =.=

ladidadada! i miss you… i miss you a lot… ting its broken! yes yes it broke…*Broken by Secondhand Serenade* long before we realised that it already was… sigh… *pretend to hug YOU, while i hug eddie ><*

yoe

College Life

college life in Help, one and a half years… as it comes to an end, well, time flies, and now when we are all together and having so much fun, its time to leave again. those memories and moments in Help are to be remembered… gosh i m gonna miss college!! *hugs*

it all started here… it was fun…

our dreadful LAN classes during the first sem, where han n nellie were still with us XD

limau ais sessions in Bangsar during two hour breaks =)

the never ending gambling sessions in class, (spot mr sam behind teaching) hahaha

loong with his roti man in front of him  hahaha…  gonna miss walking with him for breakfast *hugs*

monopoly sessions, at “supposedly” pool parties… with further math lecturer =) happy times

gonna miss FIFI!!! and sitting on the table haha

priceless gay moments O.O

hyqal!!! hehe

A52 Group I…  we love our FP classes… karaokes in class, non stop laughter, stupid jokes, birthday celebrations, outings, dinners, lunches, randomness… gonna miss class

not forgeting… futsal matches!!!!! had so much fun, (although i cant kick a ball to save my life hehe)

well i had a lot of fun in college… got to make many new friends, meet different ppl… also attempt harder math questions haha…

yoe

On a lighter note,

Laugh so hard that even sorrow smiles at you,

Live life so well that even death loves to see you live,

Fight so hard that even fate accepts its defeat.

Never search your happiness in others which will make you feel alone,

Rather search it in yourself you will feel happy.

Happiness always looks small when we hold it in our hands,

But when we learn to share it,

We realize how big and precious it is!

adapted;

yoe

Shaken

somethings happen that we cant change. well thats why its called life. it isnt going to be easy all the time. yes it might seem smooth flowing, but then, in just a slight flicker of the eye, things change. almost instantly. one breath. the last breath. changed the lives of everyone around. it wasnt easy on me. it wasnt easy on anyone.

i guess this thought me a valuable lesson; to NOT take anyone, anyone for the matter, for granted. yes we may think that they will always be there with us, so we dont really pay much attention or maybe we just thought they would always be there. till it hits you, then the hurt is too excruciating that it takes a long time to get back up on the horse.

i might not make sense to some of you who are reading, and i m sorry. well i just lost my grandaunt. she was only 61 and she had liver cancer for the past 4 years. having said that, she has been very close to my mum and i since we live just 5 minutes away. someone so close, someone who i see so often, just gone like that. yes it took me at a suprise.

i have no experienced something like this before. so i was confused. i didnt know how to act, or what to say. and when everyone in the family was not in the correct state of mind to do anything, i had to make the phone calls. yes i brought the bad news to other family members. and yes it wasnt easy on me nor on them.

since the 14th of april, i have been so drenched with emotional breakdowns, rituals, prayers, one after another… my grandmother, 79, already old, could not take this lightly; and this has been pretty hard on me as well. its something different, it was something that i learnt throughout this whole thing. and maybe it made me stronger as a person.

then again its life. somehtings happen for a reason. fate. destiny. its all true. hope, faith and prayers are the only things that keeps you going. gosh i wished so much to turn to my best fren during these times, but i couldn’t. well, thats for the better too.

yoe